fingers crossed

I used OPKs, I used pre-seed, I BD'd on all my "fertile" days....now i'm 5 dpo...5 more till i take a frer and see whats up. if its neg, I'll wait for af, no reason to retest, my LP is only 12 days....I'm hoping, I've been praying...I just want that little eggie in there to be fertilized and floating on it's way to my ute to burrow its way in...hoping hoping hoping!!! FXFX!! I feel like, if God is real, then he'll make me pregnant, if not, it solidifies that he doesn't exist..........please, let me be pregnant.